千瑛-chie-

I was born in Tokyo on June 9, 1983.

I have suffered from mental disorders since I was a minor.

When I was in junior high school, I started studying psychology on my own.

I majored in clinical psychology at university.

At that time, I realized for the first time that I was seeing

the world differently from other people.

I learned that I have "synesthesia."

Synesthesia is a type of brain perception, and in my case,

I see colors in sounds, shapes and colors in the personalities and emotions of living things, colors in letters, and visual information becomes taste.

This synesthesia causes me pain in my daily life.

I often get headaches because of the amount of information entering my brain. In art, my synesthesia and mental illness become my weapons.

I play around covered in colorful paints, and sometimes I even fall in love with my work.

My main art materials are acrylic and oil paints.

When I paint abstract paintings with acrylic paints,

I almost never use brushes or painting knives.

I mainly paint with my fingers, sometimes blowing on them to scatter the paint.

When I first started painting, I used a variety of art materials.

I used a lot of things around me, like cigarette ash from the cigarettes I was smoking at the time, coffee, sand,

nail polish, and later on, I started using my own bodily fluids.

I would dilute the paint with tears instead of water, use hair as a brush, and even use my own blood.

Painting with bodily fluids was a completely natural act for me.

I sacrificed my life to face my paintings and myself.

Why are people born into this world crying, and why do we shed tears when we are sad and in pain, and when we are happy and overjoyed?

What do the tears convey?

The core theme of my works is "life and the way we live."

I don't know if my works will be good for you.

 

But I want to convey.

This life and the way we live.

 

If I ever find out the reason behind the many, many tears

I have shed tens of thousands of times,it will be when I have fulfilled my life and way of life through painting.

Just as it is only when I am prepared to die that I am prepared to live,I will continue to paint until I die, and through my way of life I will continue to convey the meaning of this life and the proof of my existence.